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I am now a contractor for more than three companies, joggling my business between days, overwhelmed with love and happiness, being worried and concerned of how much I sleep and not being able to plan accordingly, but having my job spanning over more than five days ahead, hoping and coping with finishing it, and of course, as it always goes right throw my deadline, like the bullet throw my head and pain I have sometimes when thinking about things. It always prolongs itself for a lot more than planned no matter how much I planned it in the first place or the second. It is beauty. I love it. I never want to give it up, not for one chance, one moment, one blessed second or moment of doing anything else. I'll end up doing it once, for sure. I have to give up these moments, long processes of being alone, in my thoughts, conversing with these people, doing my plans, doing right through them, earning, my experience, my purpose, my life. It is my blessing, me being alive as a gift which i...